Two Become One

I never really took in what that meant until just the other day, when I was looking into my daughters eyes. Ever since she was born, and I would look into her eyes, I would see myself. It was the most surreal feeling to look at this little person and see a glimpse of yourself. Then I wondered if I was being biased because she was "my" baby! LOL So, I asked Brent if when he looked at her, did he see me in her eyes or himself!?!?!? He said, "I see myself!" Punch to the gut, let me tell you :(  Even though he said that, I still see myself in her a lot. But...... when she smiles I see so much of her daddy too! I guess it just depends on the face she is making at the moment. Now I can honestly say I DO see us both! What better way to join two people, than in the creation of a child. She is the best of both of us, in one little body! She makes me realize what marriage really is. Not that I didn't realize what my marriage meant, but sometimes the craziness of the day to day can make you not appreciate what have. I love my daughter and I love my husband. To look at her, have so much unconditional love for her, see her for her, realize how blessed we are, see my husband, and appreciate what God has joined together is amazing!  I love my little family!!!

Cute Little Ballerina........

It's the inside that matters, not the outside right!?!?! A friend of mine said, "I bet it was so fun taking her out in that outfit!" Smssssh... it was a great attempt! LOL I dressed her up so cute so that we could go have lunch with daddy yesterday. I had stopped, got lunch, and then we headed to the base. I get to his job, grab her baby carrier and go to get her out of her carseat. As I go to pick her up, I put one hand behind her back, and one hand under her bottom. To my surprise, some slimy, warmness hits my hand. I look down and I see, MUSTARD YELLOW, SEEDY POOP all over my hand, and it did not stop there! It was all in her carseat and ALL over her cute, little, pink ballerina outfit :( I was so determined to bring her in with it on, that I sat in the car and scrubbed the heck out of it with every baby wipe I had, then cleaned up her carseat. Luckily the carseat has a pad under her bottom, so all I had to do was remove that :)

So in the carrier "she" goes, and up to daddys' office we go for lunch. After we have been sitting up there for awhile, she decides to puke all over her outfit!!!  So then I think to myself, "maybe you just don't want to wear this outfit!" Changed her clothes, because of course.... I have no more wipes!!! We say bye to daddy and then go down to the car. As I am putting her in her carseat, I can't find her paci ANYWHERE. I guess that got lost in the poop episode of the afternoon. Soooo, what happens when I get her in her careat????? She screams her head off! So here I am, driving with my arm towards the backseat with my finger in her mouth. We make it to Babies R Us and she starts screaming more because I took her "finger" paci away. She cries the whole time in the store. So I pay and take her paci's out of the package and suck the heck out of them so I can give it to her.

Sure, it was a TON of fun to put her in that outfit! LOL So as you all look at this picture and see this cute little ballerina posing, I know what really lies beneath! I was thinking on the ride home that I have finally been initiated! The getting pooped, peed, and puked on was rookie stuff! I am moving on to the big leagues now!!!!

My Greatest Blessing

.....has to be the day I became a mommy! My whole world turned from black and white, in to color! These past 3 months have not been spent just learning about my little one. I have actually learned ALOT about myself. I have seen a side of myself that I never knew existed. I have always been one to get things done as quick as possible and sometimes forget to see the lighter side of it all. Now in the midst of scrambling to get ready to leave the house, I actually take a few seconds to marvel in my daughters new discoveries. Leia has a mirror right about her changing pad in her room. After I get her cleaned up and dressed, I pick her up and she always seems to catch a glimpse of herself in the mirror. She gets the biggest smile on her face and looks at herself with raised eyebrows and excitement. She has taught me to just laugh off the small stuff. The spit up all over my new "clean" shirt, the diaper explosions right when we are about to walk out the door, the late night wake ups, where I swear I could die for just a few more hours of sleep, and then I turn the light on and see her with her chin tucked down with a soft grin, so happy to see her mom.  June 21st, 2010 started a beautiful chapter in my life. I am honored to be her mom and ever so grateful to God for entrusting me with this little life. She is learning something new everyday and I just try to soak up every second with her. The time goes by so quick :(  She is absolutely beautiful and I will be updating as much as I can so you can catch a glimpse of some of these special moments in our lives. There will be TONS more to come ;)